nobody's child except God's

I am nobody's child, except God... I think I am very self-centered in the cg... I think I am very silly... I think I ain't good enough, not loving enough... not a lot of things... i feel very down today... cause was sick and felt very tired... I am supposed to be a birthday coordinator but yet I dunno what to buy for the persons...

I kept thinking... who's the person who came up with the birthday coordinator thing? How am I supposed to buy something for someone whom I n't very close and have no idea what they want? sigh... I feel bad... about not sending my condolences to my cgm when ctually I read his blog and did nothing... I feel that I am a very bad christian.. hahaha

I didn't go home straight.. I went to eat zinger and cheese fries, despite the fact that actually I was feeling pukey.. I ate until I felt like puking all over again... hahaha then I walked slowly home... sigh... I feel down, lonely, bad and low...

I think I am in a self-pitying mode now... which is bad... I dun understand why I am getting into these modes so many times these days.. i just want to leave everything and be by myself... I suck...